Life is sometimes funny, sometimes sad and sometimes wistful. We sometimes forget the importance of the sad, funny and wistful moments.
Upon entry into school, your life journey takes on a different turn. You are given a new gift to life and in turn new goals. You must pass each year, finish school. Work hard, get to the best University.
Choose a great career, determined of course by how well you do in school. Each time a new dream is killed, and you make the best of what you have left. First, you dream of being a doctor, but you suck at maths. Then you want to model, but you are a little on the chubby side. You are not even tall enough anyway.
Then you want to be a lawyer, but seven years of studying is way too much. Not after you have spent at least twelve years in school. It does not matter what career you end up choosing. It is not really about the career anyway, it is about success.
The house, car and family. The nice things to decorate the house. The money to travel. The money to fulfil your other dreams. What happens when you tick all the boxes and you still wonder what it is you are missing? Heck, no one can tick all the boxes anyway.
With every change in your life, a ripple of consequences comes to light. So each choice has results, both good and bad. Happiness is unattainable then in this sense. Choosing what makes you happy does not result in a constant repetition of happiness.
In the same way that you can laugh even in the saddest moments of your life. No one moment is one thing or another. In one moment you can feel a different range of emotions. So why have we been promised happiness only at the end of the line?
Only to find out that even having acquired all you thought you needed, is not really the end of the line. So if you are feeling a little on the side of the river, watching other boats float by effortlessly.
Or feeling like you could have been better and maybe now you would be happy. After reading this, take a moment to close your eyes. Go inside of yourself and forget for a moment about everything else.
The darkness inside you is not something you should be afraid of. Try to be aware of your body. Your hands, feet, stomach. All with your eyes closed.
Think of yourself without all the emotions that come with that. By this I mean, feel every emotion that comes. But do not focus on one emotion. Feel everything. Remember that you came into this world whole. And you will leave it whole. You will leave this body, just like you will leave this house that you are in.
You will leave the bank account behind. Whether it is full to the brim, or empty. When all that is taken away, who are you? This reflection serves as a means to awaken the self beyond live events. That we are part of something that is much larger than human politics and governance.
Look for the answers that come from inside yourself. Appreciate that life will never be one thing, just like it is not the past or the future. Be present within yourself.